Variegations

I work too hard.  I know I do.  I like to give my best at a job because I'm so uppity that I don't want anyone to think I can't do something.  So I take on more than I should because....well, I don't know why.  I don't know why I do that.

Last week I may have known why I do that, but today I don't.

I'm sitting here having my morning cup of tea and preparing myself for another working week and it suddenly dawned on me that I'm a fool.

I don't mean a moron, I mean a fool.  Fools rush in where others fear to tread.  That's what I do at work.  I rush in and get things done because others won't or can't or just don't.  It happens day in and day out.  You can hear them... "There's that fool Kim going at a hundred miles an hour getting everything done and so she can do this too.  She's fool enough to take it on".

Hmmm.

Well, not anymore.  Today is the day I work at the pace everyone else works at.  I do my bit...obviously well :)... and then go home and forget it and what didn't get done will be there tomorrow.

I don't want to work.

Who does?

I need the money to pay the bills and that, really, is the only reason I work.  I get satisfaction out of a job well done, but I honestly know that if I gave up working tomorrow (because the Millionaire Fairy landed) I wouldn't be bored and I wouldn't feel dissatisfied.

I have so many hobbies that I do and such a wonderful growing family that life could never be boring or unsatisfying.

The fragility of life hit me hard yesterday with the death of a young lady who I saw grow from a toddler to a glamourous young woman.  She did nothing wrong, she worked hard...way too hard at times and she was taken, in the blink of an eye, without having the chance to find that peace only older people can find.

It stinks.  Justify that God or Allah or Bloody Tutenkahmen.  Justify that in your warped fairy tale ways.

And that's what I woke up with in my mind this morning.

So today is the start of the quilt.  I just ordered online my green floss for the leaves and stems.  I'm not going to stick to Ann's colour scheme, I'll be making my own to suit my moods.

I chose variegated green and brown in silk for the leaves.  201 Ash to be exact. I've ordered this from  the Country Quilt Company in Ipswich.

I love to see leaves change colour.  Autumn is my favourite time of the year and my garden gives me so much pleasure as I watch the maples and dogwood change from green to bright reds and yellows.  The variegation in the leaves can be stunning.  It reminds me of how beautiful the world is and how vital it is to remind our kids, and grandkids, to take a moment each day to see something of beauty like that.

So my leaves will be variegated.

I'm going to take my full lunch break today.  I usually don't get a chance to do that either.  But today, it's going to happen.  That will be my first major life variegation.

During lunch,I'll be looking for the linen to use to do the embroidery on.

Onward to a new way of doing things.